So i rested , hanged around, and for that once more , to sit down and think again.

And results day , was just , a lil epilogue of the journey. Yes it was fufilling , but not satisfying. What could have been that future, because i wont deny that a part of me desires for something more, something that puts me in that higher order , or level , or whatever of life. NO i'm not noble , no i dont think that i am that high above others. Maybe its just because i've been away from my own heart for so long, addressing issues that doesnt concern me, i'm neglecting myself.

So ouch, i've been shot, literally , yet i'm glad it hurt me just enough to put some sense into myself. Being considerate of how others might think, or might feel, as a direct consequence of my own actions. Draw back and hold your own line they say, yes it might just work. After all time isnt a lot left for me . About 3 weeks to enlistment, thought i should just set things right before this season is over.


Back to the point of future, there's that university applications to consider. Same case as when choosing JC, i hit the borderline of what i wanted , and then , in faith , let God be the one to choose my path. While not always feasible , at least there's this rear-end sercurity comfort that makes worth its while.

While my own obnoxious behaviour of indecisive past still haunts my resolution, lets hope that this time , since the choice of course could well determine the career path, let it be guided again .

Let God guide me again .



I'm returning home .

There's no running away , there's no point running away , so have courage in the face of it. LIke what they said , 123 days after the end of the last paper, our journey through education of this level will finally close.
One that , with all faith , may bring a relief and joy, of a brighter future. Though too early to speak as of , i guess no amount of intentional distraction from that reality would work . Result comes.

And all those endless days of working , is just, just another add-on to that ultimate aim. While education may not just be for the sake of securing that job prospect , choosing the career path, it does mean as a challenge on a personal level, of how high up can you stand up to against tens of thousands of peers , using a fair and equal gauge.

My heart may fail , but it does not yield .